Tuesday, December 26, 2006

what is he thinking?.......

What is up with this person? He doesn't seem to care about me at all. He doesn't seem to be interested in talking to me. No calls..... he called me yesterday and we talked for about less than 30 seconds. He never bothered to call me anymore. When ever we chat on aim.... we never exceed 5 minutes of talking. How is this going to work if I always have to force him to talk to me or something. This relationship is not going to work if I like him more than he likes me. If he doesn't care I can't force him to care come on..... I always read his blog... not because I'm nosy but I just want to understand him better, to know more about him. I really don't know what is he thinking right now. If this keeps up and he is still so insensible than HOW is this going to work. I can't always be the one to talk to him first come on... I feel so cheap for writing such a card to him and make such a special presents for him. I spent all my time and heart in it to make it for him. Then again I ask myself is he worth it? He doesn't care... so why should I care.. thats what makes me so angry. He is not showing me how he feels, not expressing it, not talking to me. HE is testing me play tricks with me or something... When ever I have to talk to him first it makes me feel like I'm annoying him. He barely responds to my aim. I tried talking to him text him, aim him... but he is not responding me. I know he is new to this well I AM TOO. He can always ask others for advice or something. Like I do, so I can understand the situation and fix it or avoid something guys don't like to hear or don't like to face. ARGHHHH i'm going crazy...seriously I'm not sure how long I can take it anymore. Maybe this doesn't bother him at all that were always so speechless. Maybe I'm the only one that taking it so seriously and bothering myself about it. I have to stop! I really have to before I'm going to explode.......

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