Runaway Kids...

I lied to my family. I came back from the trip and spent 4 days with my baby. It was a very nice 4 days. We were with each other 24/7 and it was a great experience. i didn't need to care about anything but have fun with him. We went to many places with jenny and jay too. I love the experience at the beach! It was romantic when we get to see the sunset and the beautiful glittery water and sand. We made a sand lady with a big ass... gosh and you know who made the butt so big.. such a perv! We also took pics kissing under the sunset. It was so pretty!! Also we walked down the shore and lay there during the night. To the right we could see the sun and the glittery lake..to the left we could see the whole Chicago night view it was so awesome! It was so fun although for some reason I lost my shoes and I had to get new ones. They were climbing the poles and does strip pole dances that was hilarious! It was fun that we made our own korean bbq at home. It was a very fun night. We sat there eating like fatasses and played cards.. It finally felt like summer vacation! woohoo! The other days we also went sushi buffeting at Sushi Para II least we didnt need to wait this time. I want my ice cream!!! Then we also went to korean BBQ the other day along with kareoke for the first time! It was a crappy place cuz there wasn't many songs we could sing with but the very last song made us look so pimping when we walked out the room lmao. Party like a rock... party like a rock star!! It was fun.. I'll miss those days where we could sleep as late as we want and wake up as late as we want and eat and do what ever we like... nice memories..

Minnesota Trip!

My second week long trip with BCQ. We went to Minnesota Lake Itasca for a whole week. It took us like the whole day to drive there. But I have to say it was surprisingly pretty there! The cabins were beautiful! But the weather there was really cold. The first day I went there, we went canoeing at the lake. It was so fun! It was the first time I ever rowed a boat on my own. Although it was in the rain and it was dangerous and wobbly, it was still fun for my first experience. Unfortunately, I got sick being exposed to the rain for a while. So I was sick for the rest of the trip. There were no reception there and so I couldn't really contact my baby. I tried all sorts of ways to contact him. Luckily, the reception worked on my friends phone for this tiny moment in the room. So that was the only phone call I had of him. The second day, we went for a hunting game out in the forest. We had a competition of who will catch the most mice. That was the first time I held and learnt how to hold a wild mouse on my hand. It was awesome. Happily, I won the competiton during the 3rd night catching a jumping mouse!! I named it Zapeous which means a jumping mouse. His legs were long and he leaps! Its a very fast one! but it was the cutest thing ever. Too bad I had to give it back to its nature mommy or else I would of kept it. I also won 20 dollars from the competition. It wasn't much but it gave me a lot of pride. Another group caught red volt mouse it was so cute too. Also Dr. Brown caught a raccoon. wow the first time i ever saw one in person! There was also a pingpong table there and so I played it for a while with my friend gene. It was fun though. The next day we went on a 10 mile hiking trip. I was surprised I could make it even with me being sick I could still hike that much. The only problem was that I got my very first tick there! Thereafter, I got many, many more. I lost count how many ticks got on me. Then we all had psychological ticks. Its like we can feel it crawling on us even if its just us imagining it lmao. Then we went to a very high tower and lost count of how many steps it took to get up there. Boy that was tiring. But the view up there was unbelievable... I could see the whole lake itasca there. It was beautiful. The bed I slept on was in a nice cozy room with a little camp fire rite next to me. It was a lovely place to sleep at. Then next we went to a fossil hunting place. I was disappointed because they didn't give us any utensils to find the kool stuff. All I found we only shells, while my other friends found shark tooths. lmao such bad luck for me. It was a beautiful day for a camp fire. So finally we set up our first and only camp fire that night. Gus wouldn't stop making explosions to start the fire. It was an awesome scene. He is such a crazy dude. The sky was clear and I could see the whole galaxy of stars above my head. It was wonderful. I can finally meet my old friend stars again. I really miss them. The last time I saw them were my very first saukville trip. I actually get to see the big dipper. I finally know how it looks like. It was such a great night that everyone stayed up at least to 3am singing and talking, playing fun games around the bond fire with each other. Dr. Brown told us a lot of ghost stories and his interesting one of a kind animal traveling stories at Africa, and his other trips around the world. Too bad I was still sick, I could of done a lot more than I did if I wasn't. I went canoeing for the second time in a more peaceful and sunny day. It was so nice out that day the sun was setting and the water was still. Just rowwing the boat and paddle getting lost in the lake was awesome. I took so many pics there. I really enjoyed the water fights I had. It was fun knowing how dangerous it was when the boat was so wobbly when there are only me and gene paddling it. The boat can only fit 3 maximum pplz in there. It is cut low and it was easy to tip over the water. Hhahaz it was fun.. I was all wet after I got back on shore. But man it was tiring after I paddled for almost 2 hours, but it was worth it. The last day I was there, it was pouring outside. So we didn't do much except trapping mice and playing cards and talking and chilling with my friends. Until night time came, we all decided we didn't even start our flippy cup games so wanted to get drunk the last day we were there. Katty was so crazy and drunk she demanded the guys to strip hahaz. There were a lot of hairy butts there. ewwwwwwww also I closed my eyes but dam man it was horrific!! Of course I didn't need to strip cuz im so good at that game lmao. Shippra was so drunk. She got mad at the whole team cuz we kept on winning and complained over and over again that I am drinking water and it was unfair to them. I got so pissed off...I said FINE YOU WANT ME TO DRINK I WILL DRINK!! So I poured the water in front of her and opened a can of beer and sipped it in her face! MUhahahahz I win! Omg it was such a scene. All my friend's jaw dropped, eyes popped wide opened, and then I heard clapping noise lmao. They were all so happy and so proud its like I just set the mood for a big BANG that night. Everyone got high and happy. Then we took so many pictures hahahaz. Its more like they made a big scene out of it. After that I played flippy cup with beer. Boy it tasted nasty! They finished all the beer and there boom! I got my first buzz. hahahz ... But I got to watch out next time. My first buzz experience was such a funny one. Gene suddenly played the guitar for me and showed me how to play the notes. Then he got closer and closer .... and he kissed me on the cheek all of a sudden and said I like you. I was like WTF! ANd so I made up an excuse to walk Shippra back to the cabin cuz she was so drunk. Boy that was dangerous... never again shall I drink. Especially when jundi is not there. For some reason I really wanted to drink that night... I felt sad in a way that I just want to forget about everything. And the beer did work.. The next day we had to clean the house and leave home. My head was still weird and drowsy. I was trying to sleep in the car but I couldn't. When I left the place, I felt like I didn't do as much as I wanted... I actually felt kinda of down during the trip. Like I was missing something. Then I noticed, I was missing my boyfriend.. I wish he came with me, but I knew he wouldn't have enjoyed it out there. He doesn't like camping . >.<

happy 8th Month..

In a blink of an eye... We held our hands from the cold lonely fall to a lovely warm spring..and now we are heading to a new start. Summer! I can't believe its summer already and yet I still don't know much about this boy. I feel as if we talk lesser and lesser. As if we have no interest of whats happening in each others lives. He doesn't know what I am doing everyday.. what time I get out of school or who I talk to or hangout with. I don't know what he does everyday..who he meets, who he hangs out with, or even who he chats with. I wonder why I'm feeling that way. Kisses feel more cold, hugs feel like nothing, calls don't even matter anymore. We even feel lazy to get out the door to see each other. But don't we miss each other?? I really don't know anymore. He was mad at me because I didn't order his straightening iron. The truth is I already ordered it. But I just don't want him to know. I want to see how he reacts if I don't get what he wants. Well, I got my answer. Its just a habit to call me everyday because I make him do that. Its not like he misses me or anything. Its more like he is obligated to do so. Every time I pick up, we only say hello, whatzup... what else is there to say? He don't really like talking about his-self or his past. And he doesn't seem interested of what I did or what I saw during the day. He rather watch his games or do something on the internet instead of paying attention to what im saying. He doesn't like to talk about his interest or his passion and what he wants to do. All my friends asked me so many questions of how was my trip what I did there who I met what I saw... they all want to know. And yet my bf only says did you have fun? He didn't bother to ask anymore..He wasn't even interested to know. I have so much to say..and yet my listener dun even wanna know. Why is that? Any plans for the summer? Any plans or ideas of where to hangout or what to do with me? I know I will be busy during the summer. I need to work because I have to pay off my tuition and I have to go to summer school and lab and homework time. But I will make all the time he wants if he wants to see me or hangout with me. Why does it seem like I have to beg him to get out the door to come see me now? Why was he so anxious to see me and spend time with me in the past? What happened? Things just became boring. Every time we see each other its just sex... that's all we do.. What happened to those times where we sleep next to each other talking about our problems or our secrets? What else do we do besides hanging out with jenny and jay cuz they are full of ideas to go somewhere and do something. What happened to all the fun things we used to do, used to say, and used to like? Where did it all go? Is this what happens when your with someone for awhile? Lose interest? We are no longer trying. why is that? Maybe hes more happy without me? Not like he will read my blog anymore or that he will care to read all the words I written down. Probably he skimmed through this or gave up reading it by now because it is long and boring. By now you should feel irritated of why I am acting this way. Or is it just your period? Why do you always make problems? that's what you will probably say.

See what happens? this is exactly how you may feel rite now. Don't you feel some of what i'm feeling? and why I would spend time to write all this down? why I am so unhappy? But not like we will try and spice it up a bit. It's okay. That is why I would not say any more.....