I've been suffering from hair lost ever since winter vacation. At first I really thought it was because I straightened my hair too much and weakened my hair nutrients.. but until Erika said I am probably under stress I finally knew why. I was't even stressing through school problems but the other things.. my personal life. Some times it bugs me so much that i can't even sleep. I can't stop thinking of him... of why is he so unclear, why does he do that, why is he so careless. I am very tired of guessing and doubting him.... and so I've decided to talk to him seriously. I need to make it clear to myself of what are his intentions and where is this relationship going. The only way I can free myself is to ask him verbally. To make it realistic. I want to know if he is serious and if he is planning to continue this relationship after he leaves to college. I really need to know before I step any deeper. If he makes it clear to me I can finally open up to him and be close to him. But yes I am afraid to tell him because I don't want him to look at me in a different way or to leave me. But this talk will determine it all and I can finally know the answer. So to all wishes I hope it will turn out well and that he would also open up to me and tell me how he feels. Hopefully I won't chicken out...lolz.. I call myslelf a weakling!
O yea! Today is my first month anniversary with him 1/22/07. I actually got kind of mad at him because he forgot about it. Well he claims that he didn't forget, but he obviously he didn't show me that he cared or knew about it. But I'm okay with it now. The sad thing is that our fisrt month is marked on final exam day, which really suks and also he has his posse thing every monday so I didn't have time to be with him. It was suppose to be a memorable day but it turned out to be a every day routine thing. Well too bad... Hopefully we can do something to make up for it. ^-^
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