jealousy.....

I'm so easy to get pissed off or to get jealous of other pplz all the time. Like today when I c ien always hugging him out of no where, I get jealous. She's too open around him and I don't like it. Shes like too touchy with him and they're too close. I mean its not a bad thing that he hangsout with other friends but what i'm asking for is to give me some respect and keep a certain distance with his other gurl pals... Once ien made a profile on aim saying that she will really miss him and that she doesn't noe what to do without him, I got jealous. I got so pissed off man...How would he like it if I hug and be flirty with other guys? Thats how I FEEL. N then he always talks about his other gurl pals around me.. its kinda irritating to hear those stuff. I don't want to hear it. Then I said stupid things to him today.. what the hell am I doing? I'm juz being whinny rite now and its so freakin annoying. I'm jealous becuz I care. These things bother me so much I can't even concentrate on my hws anymore..... help me plz... free my mind somehow!

We really didn't get to hangout much this week becuz finals are comming up and we got to study. I miss the times when we hold hands... I want to feel welcomed and wanted , not lonesomeness. As time passes by our first month being together is on monday. It past by so fast and I dun really think the first two weeks count becuz we really didn't c each other or hangout. Isn't it suppose to be special to be together for a month already? But I doubt he remembers anyways.. he looks careless to me. And maybe he did forget and maybe he doesn't care. By the way finals are on monday which means that we don't get to hangout with each other. Maybe monday wasn't suppose to special after all. I'm sure were not going to do anything that day either. I have to be patient! Lets c what happens on monday....