It's gone...will it ever come back?

The warmness is gone. Coldness has taken over already. I feel no warmth. I feel no care. Those warm hugs he use to give me has left me. The feelings are gone. I still don't see any effort. I still don't see any care. There's still no connection. I feel that I'm the least important to him. Like I'm the last to worry about on his check list. Maybe its time to leave it. If I tried, if I waited and nothing changes it's time to let it go. The thoughts of tears is flowing threw my mind again. Like how it use to be. I've been holding it for a long time. After that wednesday, I promised myself that i would never cry for those things again, that I would juz play along and cope with it. But yea I did try my best to not let it out. N I broke that promise. My first bf is describe as tears, tears, tears, unwanted, not respected, and not worth it. Thats how I feel. All he brings me is sadness. Maybe it was wrong to start. Those feelings I don't want to experience again. It's crap and I don't like it. He doesn't even make some time for me.. .. I guess it won't work out then. It been like this for months. I feel sleepy... I should a nice long rest without any worries.