Today is the anniversary of us being together, Dec. 22. I remember this same day from last year's. We went to the movies and watched " A night at the museum. It was really fun... it was our first date.
I can't believe a whole year has past. I have been wondering how would my life be if we stood together until today. Would we be lovely or spread apart? I may never know the answer to this question. I wanted to call him today and say... its exactly a whole year now, I want to know how you felt back then. I wanted to know this answer from the start, but I can never find it. Maybe one day the answer will peacefully fly to me. Maybe one day we can actually talk to together like we used to. Maybe... he can open up to me. Well, I always lose the courage to ask, and grows sad about it. I always cry..but I wonder why... It has already been a whole year, but I can't forget about him. I keep on thinking of the things we used to do and the places we went to. I just can't forget. I wish I can be like most girls. They have a lot of courage to forget about the past and go on in life. For some reason I can't do that. I feel horrible. I wish I can just go on and find another boyfriend. Maybe I still need some time. Maybe I'm just slow at these things. I saw him again at alfredo's sholarship ceremony. O yea! ALFREDO GOT THE POSSE!!! I'm so happy for him ^-^ I still couldn't talk to him like usually. It still bugs me. I wish I can feel like myself around him, but I can't. I still couldn't give him a goodbye hug. We actually don't talk much on aim or when I see him. Now I feel stupid. He probably forgot EVERYTHING about me, so why can't I do the same? why? I wish I may, I wish I might, just forget about the past and don't let sad memories bite.... me.
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