I miss him.... I really do

OK.. I CAN'T SLEEP FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS. I have been thinking of him over and over again. I am annoyed that I can't get him off my head. Yes... I do still like him. I missed him. Over the summer I have been always thinking of him. Gosh... when cna I ever get this over with?! I told myself many times that this can't go on before I go crazy. Those past memories have been haunting me all year long. I can't believe our anniversary is almost here. December 22. I can't believe I still remember that date. Its been almost a year and I can't get him off my head. My heart still aches. My head still hurtz. My tears still roll down my cheeks. For the past few nights, I have been crying so much in pain when I look back into those memories. It bothers me so much that I can't sleep. Even now typing at 3:30 am because I can't sleep. I am thnking of it so much more because I saw him other day. I wanted to tell him so many things, I wanted to embrace him, in his arms. But I didn't. I didn't even hug him when I saw him again. But I did see those happy eyes again when I first appeared. I wonder if he missed me too. I am glad he is still the same. I'm glad he is happy in college. I really want to talk to him. I want to ask why he made those decisions back then. I really want to know. I need to solve these problems before those memories come haunt me again. I need to do something in order to move on in life. I don't want to be stuck in this heartache situation. SOMEONE PLZ HELP ME!!!! >_x

Over the semester, he texted me sometimes on aim. He wanted to see me over the webcam. The truth is I really wanted to see him again too, but my webcam wasn't working and I was panicing on how to fix it. In the end, I still couldn't fix it.... I feel so bad.