He never learns... Can anyone warm my heart?

Why should I care. I'm getting pissed off again...on little things. I feel as if he never learns. Always running away from me. Is that how all guys react? Is it? I still don't understand. Maybe it was the wrong decision to "try" to chat with him. It's useless. I think we still can't even be friends. There is no turning point, period. I shouldn't let these things bother me. The fact is... I'm still fuking bleeding!!! It won't stop, and I'm seriously aggravated. I really should consider getting a new boyfriend. Maybe that will help. Hopefully. I don't want any rebounder, but the fact is its already been a year, the ones after shouldn't be called rebounder. Gosh.. move on already. I want this summer to be my new start. I should stop caring about those dumb friends. I tried so hard to maintain a friendship, and there I receive nothing but loneliness. Where are they when I need them? I'm always there when they need a shoulder. Friends are useless. Its not like I can't live without them. I shouldn't even try hard. Its not like there is someone to depend on. I'm so tired. I really am. I wish I can just hurry up and get out of school and find a job and meet new people. I want to get out of this world for a period of time and brainwash myself like nothing happened and nothing is worth my effort. Thats all for tonight. I love writing my feelings in here. It's the only way I can feel better. Friends.. who needs them?